It has happened. It wasn’t what I hoped, but it was what I was expecting. Yes, “Respawn” was rejected. I am not downhearted at the news though! Firstly, though it’s a solid story in it’s current form, I think I can refine it even more. Even proof reading it what felt like a million times, there were still errors that were pointed out by a friend that read it. That alone shows that I really need to slow down and sharpen the edges.

Secondly, it was a very positive rejection letter which means a lot. I know it sounds silly to say such a thing, but there is. Most editors will just tell you what they think and don’t fluff you up when rejecting a story. In the letter I received, the editor said he liked my story but it wasn’t what they were looking for right now. He went on to say that he hopes that I keep their publication in mind for future stories and I most definitely will. They are a hands down one of the best online publications and have published award winning content.

In conclusion; Am I disappointed? Yes. I am very disappointed. As unrealistic as it might be, I had hopes that I could be that guy that got published with his first submission. Am I beaten? Not by a long shot. This story is a winner, I just need to get it tuned up and in peak performance. I just need to work harder.

Overall, I am feeling really good about this experience. I have a terrible fear of rejection, but this doesn’t feel that bad. I got a positive response wrapped up in some bad news. Could have been so much worse. Well, back to writing.


  1. Michelle BrownNo Gravatar
    Posted June 30, 2010 at 10:58 pm | Permalink | Reply

    I recently sent in my first submission, too. I was hoping I’d get an email response within the first week…now I am just hoping I get a response. I’d be so happy with a letter like your’s. I love your positive attitude and that you love your story (not second guessing it since it was turned down). Good luck!

    • CarlNo Gravatar
      Posted June 30, 2010 at 11:11 pm | Permalink | Reply

      Thanks for the feedback and luck! I have a history of beating myself up over things I personally look on as failure, but a good friend of mine recently told me “If it’s easy, everyone would be doing it.” It’s a simple phrase that’s been said a lot, but it’s really true.

      Since I’m coming to the literary world so late, I have a lot of making up to do. I don’t just mean writing, but reading as well. I’m not one of those kids that grew up loving to read. I honestly battled with learning disabilities when I was a child. I’m great at stuff like math, but English classes and reading in general was really hard for me. Also not being “educated” as a writer makes it harder as well. In college, I only took a few classes and they we’re geared towards people that planned on making writing their livelihood.

      As far as my response, I was very specific in the publisher I submitted to. I picked rather respected online publication that is known for speedy turnaround on submissions. They only accept submissions online via their own submission service. So the whole experience took less than a week. Since there was a 90% chance it was going to be rejected, I just wanted to get it out of the way quickly. Like taking off a bandage.

      Anyways, that’s enough of all that… I wish you luck with your own submission. I am now off to revise my story and submit it to publishers that I am sure will take months to get back to me… 🙁

  2. Posted June 30, 2010 at 11:42 pm | Permalink | Reply

    Carl, great job on overcoming the fear of rejection by submitting in the first place. I also commend your attitude, and I also know that rejection is part of the game. Keep the fire burning, amigo.

    • CarlNo Gravatar
      Posted June 30, 2010 at 11:47 pm | Permalink | Reply

      Thanks brother. You’ve been a big help and inspiration through this strange time in my life.

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