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An Open Letter to Dr. Ray Muzyka & Bioware

Dr. Muzyka,

First I want to thank you for taking a moment to address the fans more or less directly. I know many people in the Mass Effect fanbase have been getting frustrated by the relative “wait & see” responses we’ve been getting up to this point. While you didn’t really provide solid answers you at least gave us a time frame in which to expect them, which is more than we had yesterday. I also want to thank you for what has mostly been an amazing gaming experience that has stretched three games and nearly half a decade.

Now to the point: I think most everyone can agree that Mass Effect 3 is a good game, so please stop hiding behind review scores. In my experience with talking with other fans it’s clear that almost everyone likes, nay loves, the first 98% of the game. Sure there might be some small issues or minor complaints, but nothing is really wrong with the game until you reach the ending. There is a lot of emotional satisfaction leading up to the ending. It’s almost like a Mass Effect class reunion. All the old characters show up (as long as they didn’t die,) you do some dancing, get drunk and then wake up on a couch next to Aria. Unfortunately, you wake up start to party some more and now the last bit of the night where you hook up with your old crush is a muddled drunken blur. Completely unsatisfying and putting a dampener on an otherwise AMAZING night.

That being said, I must again request Bioware hide behind the ratings. Sure you’re getting a metacritic score in the 90s from industry reviews, but on that same site you’re getting a 49 from the fans. Now I’m not saying that’s a fair score, because I strongly disagree. Anything below 80% as a rating is just someone being petty. *BUT*. If you’re going to embrace one, you can’t dismiss the other.

Here’s the sad honest truth that most of us know about video game reviews. Many reviewers never finish the games that they review. If you’re a professional in the industry, you’re a busy person. You have deadlines to meet and things to do. You don’t always have time to play through a 30+ hour game, and you surely don’t have time to play through the game twice; which is where the endings honestly get the most frustrating. So we have to take reviews with a grain of salt. How many reviewers finished the game before they published their review? How many had a chance to realize that all the endings were more or less the same, just with a different colored tint?

Seriously, the three endings (four if we’re being really generous) are more or less the same. They are so similar, that the cutscenes sync up and it’s obvious that the CGI was recycled between the endings (click here for a video that perfectly illustrates this point.) At this point, it feels like more effort has been put into the amazing commercials for the game than the actual ending.

In a game that was so character driven, why would anyone assume that ambiguous endings about characters that people have dedicated years to would be okay? Why are there plot holes? How did my squad get back the the Normandy without me? Why was the Normandy running from the fight? These are basic questions that no one asked during development? It seems like somewhere, there is an explanation to these sorts of questions but they might have been cut for the sake of keeping things moving. But why would you do that? I don’t think anyone has complained about an ending being “too long” or “too in-depth.” If you’re going to get wordy and long winded, the last scene of a trilogy of games seems to be the perfect place to do so.

The “Indoctrination Theory” is interesting two fold:
First, the ending was so bad that a large number of fans would rather it all be a dream. Think about that for a moment fellas. The ending is so disliked, people would rather you pull one of the cheapest and most reviled storytelling cop outs of all time. People would rather have Shepard wake up next to Bob Newhart or the Normandy be a ship in a snowglobe. That’s saying something.

Secondly, the story at the end is so rickety and undefined that fans can make a decent argument that it never happened. Sure you can really do that with most stories, but it seem particularly easy with Mass Effect 3. A well written story can leave thing vague without poking holes in their own balloon. And again, this doesn’t really apply to the whole story, just the ending.

All that is to say the following: Remember that you make games for the fans, not the critics. I personally think a brand new ending is asking a little much, but patching up the existing ending is well within reason. Tell us what happened to our crew. Tell us what happened to Shepard. Tell us what happened to all the other races. Are all the galaxy’s military forces now stuck in Sol? How did my squad get back to the Normandy? Why was the Normandy traveling via relay at the end? Fair warning, please don’t charge for this content. I personally won’t pay and there are a lot of people out there just waiting for another reason to be “internet” angry with you guys.

Also, in the meantime… make a video. Interview the Mass Effect 3 team. Ask them questions and let them answer with candor. Why were these choices made? How do they feel about the ending? What went into it? I don’t think I would be so frustrated personally if I just knew what the logic behind all this was.

Anyways, I want to thank you Bioware for one of the defining video game franchises in my nearly 30 years of playing games. While I didn’t like the ending of Mass Effect 3, the Mass franchise has always been a positive note in my experience and I will continue to view it as such. I know it’s not easy to pull off something like Mass Effect, and you guys should be given a lot of credit for taking it this far before your first “major” misstep.

P.S.- The Multiplayer is a lot of fun. I rarely play multiplayer and I find myself not able to put it down. Can’t wait to see what content you have lined up for it.

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I Think I’m Done With Video Games

I’m a life long gamer. I can’t remember a time in my life when there wasn’t a video game system of some sorts in my house. I started on the Atari 2600, got swept up with Nintendo Fever… heck I even had a Sega Saturn at one point. It’s a safe bet to say a large portion of my life has been dedicated to video games: either playing, writing about or selling them. But I think I’m done. I mean, I’m not going to ever play a video game again… but I’m just done with them being such a large portion of my life. You might be wondering why at this point. It’s no one thing and it’s not a sudden shift, but it really came to a head the past few weeks. What was the catalyst? Mass Effect 3. No spoilers are in the following.

Now before people start assuming, it’s not just the ending. Yes, the ending was completely pants. No, it didn’t ruin all of Mass Effect for me forever. Yes, this whole situation has gotten completely out of hand. Let me say that my first (and maybe only complete play through) of Mass Effect 3 took me about 30 hours. The largest portion of this time was amazing. Then came this haphazard ending that just felt like I was punched in the gut. At first I wasn’t sure how I felt about it. I took almost a full day to digest the experience and see how I felt about it. In the end, I decided I didn’t like it. At best, it was inspired by a lot of previous sci-fi works. At worst, they directly ripped off the ending of some movies, television shows and other video games. To compound the problem, the ending just wasn’t that good. It was full of plot holes. It came out of left field and really didn’t offer anything in the way of closure. A game series made up of literally hundreds of choices was boiled down to three choices in the end (or less if you happened to not play enough multi-player or complete enough side missions.) It just doesn’t make sense.

To me the worst part about this ending is that the ending is ambiguous, and it’s currently impossible to tell if it’s by accident or by design. There are currently conspiracy theories flying around that the ending never really happened. There are videos and websites that list possible clues that at some point it all became imaginary… AND IT MAKES SENSE. Like I said, I’m not sure if Bioware did it on purpose and they’re planning on following it up or if these plotholes were the result of poor writing. Then to top it off, Bioware won’t officially speak on the issue. Rather, they answer with these vague “Wait and see what we have in store…” replies.

Like I said, it doesn’t make the time I spent playing the game less fun… however… it kind of makes me feel like I wasted a lot of time playing these games. I think that’s the biggest point to all this. The people that are casual Mass Effect fans kind of shrugged off the ending, but people that went above and beyond seem personally crushed. I personally played through each game at least twice. I’ve read comics, bought hats, and browse wikis. It kind of became my new Star Wars. Then, much like Star Wars, I was equal parts angry at Mass Effect for the ending and myself for dedicating so much time to it. Having been burnt like this so many times before, I should have known better.

Clearly I’m not the only person that feels this way. Thousands of people online have said they are also unhappy with the ending. Going as far to demand that Bioware change it. I’m not sure that will happen or even if it should happen, but the point is still clear. People aren’t happy. It seems that it’s largely the hardcore fans that are being vocal about it too. To me, it seems they would be the ones you want to keep happiest. The ones that buy the $80 hoodies, or the $15 book, or the $10 DLC. And while it is slightly silly to be this upset over a video game, some people are trying to make a positive out of it by donating to charity in the name of getting the ending changed. As I write this, a group of almost 1500 gamers have raised over $36,000 for Penny-Arcade’s Child’s Play charity. So at the very least, some sick kids are going to benefit from all this.

Now you might be wondering, why this is enough to make me stop caring about games. Well, to be truthful it’s not. This is just the tip. What really pushed me over the line is the response by video game “journalist.” The same people that think that cakes or the newest Game of Thrones poster are “news” think that the fans are wrong and being immature. Not just saying they’re wrong, but mocking them and goading them to their websites merely to get a reaction for the sake of web traffic. Let me say this again… gaming websites are mocking gamers, telling them they’re immature and that their opinion is wrong about Mass Effect’s ending being wrong. That’s a lot of irony to try to pack into one sentence, so I’m sorry if it’s hard to read.

Yes, only in the video gaming industry would “journalist” be brazen enough to openly mock and belittle the very people that they depend on to create ad revenue. All for the sake of a little extra traffic (and some will say because they are in EA’s pocket, but I like to think that’s not the case), these writers and sites are calling a portion of their readership “childish,” “immature,” “self-entitled,” and more. To make it even better, many of the writers say the fans are out of line for flooding Bioware with their complaints and should use proper means to communicate their frustration… then bash the fans who organized the donations to charity. It’s really shocking behavior. I really find it hard to think of another medium where this would happen. Video game “journalism” has little credibility, even less accountability, and apparently no class.

I just don’t want to be involved in a culture where fans are treated with so little respect by people that are directly supported by fans. I have more important things I should be doing, and now I’ll have one less distraction.

**SPOILER WARNING**

If you’ve not seen the “multiple” endings for Mass Effect 3, here’s a video that puts them all together. For a game that claims 16 different endings, this is all pretty samey. I think this is a perfect illustration to one of the various points raised about why the ending is kind of terrible…

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Not dead.

I am still alive. I survived the holidays mostly.

Lots of news coming. A lot of changes in 2012. Possible projects, new jobs, new locations… 2012 is going to be a huge year.

I’m not really ready to talk about a lot of it, but here are a couple things I am ready to share:

My writing – I really spread myself too thin in this respect. I am going to try to refocus my efforts and really make the best use of my time going forward. It’s hard to do things right when you’re trying to do too much.

Kneel Before Pod – There will be more of it. We’re going to work to make sure that there’s a new episode every two weeks. I’m also going to do my best to have actual content on the site again. Maybe not daily or anything, but maybe some videos, review and show notes. That’s right, I’m going to be professional and actually post a companion for every episode that will have links, pictures, etc. I also have some interesting ideas to make Kneel Before Pod more multi-media and also get the fans involved a little more again. We’ll see if I can get it to work though.

This Site and the Internet in general – I’m hoping to get back to sharing and communicating with all of you on Twitter, Google+ and elsewhere. I just haven’t had much to say lately and haven’t spent much time in front of a computer with twitter open. Not to mention I had my cellphone turned off during the Holidays to save money. I was super busy and that phone just sucks up my time with email and twitter.

Lastly, here’s a little personal update. Late this year I tried to weigh myself only to find that I exceeded the weight limit on my scale. It was a horrible feeling. I had to make a change. So to start things out I have gone on a Ketogenic Diet to help jump start a new, healthier period in my life. I am already down almost 35 pounds since I started in November and feeling great. I am now around the same weight I was around my second year in college. I’m sure I will be posting more about this in the future.

Anyways, here’s to a wonderful 2012!

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Is the Honeymoon Over?

In general, many people have a problem with other people in positions of authority. Very few people like to be told what to do. It’s just human nature. With that in mind, the relationship between police officers and your regular joe on the street has been tense at times. Over the years various groups of people have rioted for various reasons, some reasons better than others. Pigs, Fuzz, The Man: As long as there have been polices officers, there have been people that disliked them. Though I think that following the events of 9/11, the police in general have been riding on a wave of goodwill from the American population.

Some of you might not remember this, but before 9/11, things that involved the police were ticking time bombs. In 1992 LA burned for six days when the officers that beat Rodney King were acquitted. That same year the movie Reservoir Dogs was released. The movie contained a quick exchange between Mr. Pink and Mr. White that would be the center of many conversations with my friend Donny back in College.


Did You Kill Anybody?

Mr. Pink: Did you kill anybody?
Mr. White: A few cops.
Mr. Pink: No real people?
Mr. White: Just cops.

Could you imagine dialog like that in a movie a few years ago? There would have been hell to pay. Even now, I think there would be plenty of people offended and voicing their displeasure over it. But every day I think it’s getting to the point that it would slide past and only be a story on Fox News.

Every day on my twitter, on Reddit, or just talking to people in my store I am hearing more and more unrest. More people saying “Fuck the Police” and other such now cliche anti-authority slogans. It now seems like a near daily occurrence that someone is getting beaten, shot or sprayed while protesting in their city. Each time I see a video from the Occupy movement, the demonstrators are seemingly more and more hostile towards the police. How many more times till it’s the last time? Will the ineptitude of politicians and the ill=deeds of a couple terrible cops going to lead to riots in major cities across the country?

I hope not. I hope that we can move ahead as a nation and try to make the country a great place to live for as many citizens as we can. But hoping isn’t enough, and I fear that we’re quickly approaching that moment where a couple people are going that last dumb decision and throw us all into social unrest.

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Collecting Yourself into the Ground

So pissed off from my trip to the mall. There’s a place there called “The Bargain Box” there. The owner just opened a stand alone comic shop. It’s terrible. There are more crappy dvds than comics in the shop.

Anyways I’m getting off topic.

I go to “Comix & Collectibles” in hopes of finding an Action Comics #1. I already got it via ComiXology, but I wanted to have a physical copy to lend to a friend. I get in there and I can’t find *ANY* of the DC New 52 relaunch. I look through all the new releases and they’re just not there. I briefly thought “Wow, they sold out of everything! Even Hawk & Dove!?!?!”

Boy was I wrong. I eventually make my way to the back counter of the shop and see they have a bunch of high priced “collectible” comics behind the counter. Then I saw them… The New 52 comics. These idiots had them locked behind the counter. The clerk, who wasn’t even in the shop at the time, runs in and asks me if I was looking for anything. I tell him Action #1, he looks at me like an idiot. I explain it’s one of the newly relaunched titles from DC. He still looks at me with his idiotic blank stare.

“We have new releases in the front & more valuable ones behind the counter.”

This gets me thinking. More valuable comics? None of the DC relaunch titles had been out for more than a week. They’re back behind the counter? I looked over the selection and noticed that they had Detective Comics #1 price marked $12. It had only been out for two weeks. That clearly has to be a mistake.

“Does that Detective Comics say $12?”

The clerk fumbles around, almost turning in circles looking over the small collection of “valuable” comics.

“The one in the middle… the one with Batman on the cover… and the Joker… YES! That one.”

“Yeah, that’s $12.”

“Tell your boss he’s a scam artist.”

And I walked out.

$12 for a comic that hasn’t been out two weeks? A comic that sold incredibly well and will likely never be a collectible since so many copies were sold. There is no collector’s value when every one also owns a comic. If you want a perfect example of this, pick up any of the 5 million Reign of Supermen “special” editions that had the cut out covers. Each one introduced one of the new Supermen and the whole collection of them can be bought for a $1 in most shops. Most of these New 52 comics will be in the same boat in a year or two. Just because something is hard to find doesn’t mean it’s rare. In the case of these titles, the difficulty in finding the titles was a direct result of short-sighted shop owners simply not ordering enough copies.

I think the worst part of this is that one of the largest objectives with this relaunch was to attract new readers. These new #1s were meant to be a safe jumping off point for neophytes so they could enjoy the wonders of comics without the stress and work of extensive historical research into a character. So that being said… what new reader in their right mind would walk into a comic shop, see one of these new comics (which they have never purchased before mind you) and shell out $12 just to read a comic book.

It boggles the mind. Boggles the mind…

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TF New, Comic Books, KBP and Computers!

Tesla Force Submission Packet

First things first, I have officially sent my submission packet for the story entitled Tesla Force to Dark Horse Comics. So if you have seen me mention “Project TF” or just “TF,” that’s what I have been talking about. I don’t want to give out too many details, but it’s kind of a steam punkish/alternate history sort of story. The more I get it out there, the more comfortable I will be when it comes to revealing things about the story. I think it’s a funny story and I think it has a chance of getting some attention. Maybe not from Dark Horse or over the next few months, but by someone at some time.

The new week of DC Comic’s New 52 has hit my computer and I have to say, I was underwhelmed at first. Then magically, I was super impressed. I picked up some comics that weren’t originally on my pull list and I have to say they might be my favorites from this week. I will be doing at least two or three reviews for Guerrilla Geek (Click here for our New 52 reviews. This link will take you to the tag and get you the most up to date reviews!) Once I get a few of the full reviews out of the way, I will give a rundown of all the titles I picked up this week and my verdict. I am really excited to talk about them with Ryan on Kneel Before Pod.

Speaking of Kneel Before Pod, we made plans to record tomorrow. I’m an idiot and I think I might have to cancel those plans. For more info, including what we’re planning for the first two episodes, head over to Kneel Before Pod.

The biggest reason why we might not be recording tomorrow is we’re getting our new computer. Pardon me while I nerd out a moment, but here are the specs:

AMD Phenom™II X6 1100T Six-Core CPU (3.3 GHz)
GigaByte GA-970A-D3 AMD 970 Socket AM3+ ATX Mainboard
8GB (4GBx2) RAM
1TB SATA-II 3.0Gb/s 16MB Cache 7200RPM HDD
AMD Radeon HD 6850 1GB GDDR5 16X PCIe Video Card
Asetek 510LC Liquid Cooling System 120MM Radiator & Fan

I was toying with the idea of getting a better video card, but we don’t run multiple monitors. I am also likely going to upgrade the ram as soon as I get it with some memory I have lying about and get it up to 16GB. It’s not the tippy top end of gaming systems, but for under $800 I should be able to play any game that comes out in the next few years at max video settings. Also, it glows blue. Expect some pictures of it once I get it all setup.

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Too Many Plates in the Fire. Also *BONUS MUSIC TIME!*

Or is it too many irons on my plate? Meh…

Regardless, I have just too much going on for as lazy as I am. I have a couple music albums that need reviewed, multiple articles that need edited for Guerrilla Geek, a submission packet to finalize for a comic I’m sending to Dark Horse, organizing the return of Kneel Before Pod and I’m still trying to write content for Guerrilla Geek. All this while I work part-time in retail. It’s a lot of stuff that needs to be done and I am just too lazy to get shit out the door.

Something really needs to change if I want to get things rolling around here. The good news is that I think my submission packet is all but done now. I just need to read over everything one last time to make sure I didn’t make any really stupid mistakes, put it in an envelope, mail it and pray. I’ve let a few people read over the script and it’s getting great feedback. I just hope it’s enough to get noticed.

Sorry internet, just venting frustrations over my own shortcomings. I mean, I can’t be mad at everyone else all the time. Sometimes I have to save some of that anger for myself ^_-

As promised, here is some music time!

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10 Years

I usually don’t talk about 9/11. Why? Because I don’t really feel I have a right to. It’s didn’t impact my daily life at all. Don’t get me wrong, it was a terrible tragedy and no one can honestly say otherwise, but for me it wasn’t a personal tragedy. I didn’t lose any family members, I didn’t run from a wall of debris, I wasn’t a firefighter that now has to fight politics just so the government will help pay for the long term damage that was physically done to me because I was one of the people that tried to make a difference that day. I was just a 19 year old kid that had no connection to a city suffering what will surely be looked back upon as one of the greatest tragedies of the 21st Century.

I know I’m not alone. I’m sure that everyone that was old enough to remember the events of 9/11/2001 will remember where they were when they heard or saw what happened, but for a majority of us it was not a personally tragedy. Lets not act like our lives will never be the same. There is little difference in my life now as a result of that day and to pretend there is cheapens the suffering of the true victims in my eyes.

So on this day of solemn reflection, or off-colored jokes (hey, that’s just how some people cope), lets not paint ourselves into imaginary victims. Instead, lets remember those poor people that died. Or better yet, let’s keep those who survived in out thoughts. Those who lost people. The first responders that ruined their lives in an attempt to save the lives of others. The poor people that have to walk past that hole in a ground every day for the past ten years. The people across the country that had to sit in anxious silence and wait to find out the fate of their friends and family in NYC. Those people are the victims, not me.

My heart goes out to all the true victims. You know who you are and I hope you’ve found some amount of peace in the past ten years.

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